Ayahuasca: Soul Medicine


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The first time I drank Ayahuasca I was absolutely terrified.

Although I had long since dropped the Fundamentalist Christian beliefs I’d been indoctrinated with during childhood, remnants of them remained. In particular, those which claimed that any form of consciousness exploration through the use of substances constituted ‘witchcraft’ and was ‘a crime against the Creator’ caused  the most misgivings.

I was also afraid of what was lurking in the depths of my subconscious. Like most others, I had my share of insecurities and childhood issues which I’d done a pretty good job of repressing. But I had reached a point in my life where my current psycho-spiritual profile was no longer helping me get to where I wanted to be, and something needed to change.

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Ayahuasca is the Ultimate Adventure

The initial encounter with the plant teacher was beyond anything I expected. Since then I have had the medicine over 15 times and will continue to drink it several times per year for the foreseeable future. It’s never easy, but each subsequent journey brings more illumination, more adventure, more clarity and more healing.

The Mechanism is Not Important

There are many theories as to what is happening to an individual undergoing an Ayahuasca trip. Some claim to have actually visited other dimensions, seen past lives, met alternate versions of themselves and even encountered alien life forms and entities. Others explain it as a doorway into otherwise inaccessible realms of the individual’s (or collective) unconscious, while rational-materialists argue that it’s a simply chemically-induced hallucination created by the user’s brain.

Ayahuasca could be any of these things, or a combination of several of them. Or none of them at all. I don’t care how it does what it does. I’m just grateful that it does it.


My whole life, it always felt like there was something wrong. I couldn’t define it, but there was a consistent backdrop of mild discontent and aggravation that tainted pretty much everything I saw and did.  Morpheus described it perfectly when he said to Neo in The Matrix “You don’t know what it is, but it’s there, like a splinter in your mind”.

I knew there had to be a way to ‘fix’ myself, and I tried dozens of different things. Many did nothing, some hindered and some helped, but none provided a breakthrough on the level I was looking for. None except for Ayahuasca.

One trip in particular was so powerful and shattering that it unravelled the very fabric of my being. It’s far beyond my ability to explain how, but the ‘splinter’ was finally removed and my life has not been the same since.

It has also unlocked several other gifts including increased empathy, greater love of and connection with nature, improved intuition, deep insight into several aspects of my life and a greater awe of and appreciation for existence and my place in it.

Connection to the Ultimate

Ayahuasca also gave me a taste of something I can only describe as ‘divine’. It provided a glimpse into a world beyond the one that many of us have grown to accept as ‘all there is’.

One of my favourite quotes expresses it perfectly: “For those who understand, no explanations are necessary. For those who don’t, no explanations are possible.”

Richard Dawkins could make the most rational, logical and well-reasoned argument that there is no deeper aspect to reality, but I could never be convinced of that, because through the medicine I have had experiential knowledge of the beyond. It’s not something I read about in a book, or an idea that somebody else gave to me. It’s something I’ve felt and lived.

Just having had this connection to something beyond my ordinary waking or dreaming states galvanises me with an unshakeable faith that there is a purpose to what we are all experiencing here on earth.

“But I Don’t Do Drugs”

Harbouring a belief such as this is an indication that you are probably not ready for Ayahuasca.

The ‘War on Drugs’ is a farce that governments, under the pressure of commercial influences and misinformed social movements, have used to, in the words of Graham Hancock, deny us of our “psychic sovereignty”.

Humans have been using substances for healing, altering consciousness and psychological integration since before recorded time.

Yes, certain chemicals (including many sold legally on street corners in every developed country in the world) can, when misused, severely damage people. But to lump ritualistic and sacred forays with the plant teacher in the same category as recreational drug use or abuse is laughable – the two entities are about as far from each other as anything could be.

Don’t let society’s overly-simplistic and erroneous categorisations deprive you of what could be one of the most profound experiences of your life.

How to Prepare

Although there are certain things you can do to ensure you get the most out of the experience, nothing can truly prepare you for an Ayahuasca trip. Having said that, there are certain things things you can do to ensure that you get the most out of your interaction with the medicine…

The first is to keep in mind that Ayahuasca is not a magic elixir that will solve all of your problems. It is a tool that can help you understand more about yourself. You will have to put in work. The power of the experience is proportionate to the sanctity with which you approach it. Look at it as a fun, psychedelic trip or ‘party’ drug and it’s unlikely you’ll reap much benefit – in fact you might even get ‘burned’.

There are several opinions and variations on what is considered the correct diet to follow before you take your journey. From my current perspective, I believe that the longer you eat a clean diet (whole, unprocessed foods, no sugar or alcohol etc), the more effectively the medicine will be able to do its work in your system.

Note – It’s essential to avoid high-tyromine content foods, as they can react with the chemical makeup of the brew and cause severe illness.

Regular meditation is also essential. The calmer and clearer your mind the more easily you will be able to process the information you receive. Spending 30 minutes every day in quiet contemplation for the month before your trip will make a massive difference, as will keeping a journal of your expectations and hopes for the ceremony. Eliminating distractions in your life such as television and emotionally draining relationships will also help.

Although some would argue that it is not necessary, I would strongly suggest you have a shaman to guide you during your first session. I would also recommend that you meet said shaman before the ceremony and listen closely to what your gut tells you about them. You want to be under the guidance and protection of someone you trust and feel good about.

Face Your Fears

Despite the possibility for profound positive effects, remember that Ayahuasca is not a panacea, nor can it answer all your questions. Also know that there are potential dark sides and risks to both the experience and the industry that has sprung up around it. Like pretty much anything else, it can be taken too far and become a rabbit hole of its own.

Making sure that if you choose to go down this path you are aware of all the implications and risks involved. Nobody can make the decision for you and nobody is responsible for the outcome.

As one of my shamans said to me: “It’s okay to be scared.” My final advice to you is to face that fear head on and drink the medicine. You will dive deep into the Mystery of Life and just might have an adventure beyond anything you could have imagined.

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Thanks to Cameron Gray of Parable Visions for the use of his artwork.